Robert Goodbody Journal

visibly disappointed, and much concerned at it, and next morning I told her perhaps it was all for the best, but she did not seem of that mind. I think at that she had made up her mind to wish to go live there, and fully expected it, and it is probable that if she had not approved of it, that after her decease I never would have thought of going there, for after she was gone I had given up all hopes of removing, yet when it did offer again I went merely on her full approval of it. In her lifetime, and on many other occasions and circumstances, I have often referred in my mind to what would have been her opinion, and followed that, and in no instance do I think that I was ever wrong in doing so. The last ten days before she died I felt uneasy at leaving her alone, and sometimes staid with her while others were at meeting. The monthly meeting in the 9th mo. was on the 4th day before her death, I did not go to the first meeting but went to the meeting of discipline. Yet on my sitting down I became uneasy at being alone that after sitting a few minutes I left the meeting and went home. Yet soon after her death Jos. Pim and John Morris came on some appointment of the yearly meeting to read a minute and they both opened out at me about my non-attendance of meetings and mentioned my quiting that meeting soon after I had sat down. I told them the cause of it, but it was useless they were confident that I was wrong, yet I knew otherwise. Now if they had any right feeling they could not have made the remarks they did. I may on many occasions have absented myself from meeting, but it never was much my practice. I have often thought that same friends when they pay visits to those they consider delinquents, often depart from the

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